WHEN

 When will you

Stop

Being a victim

Own your role

In your own

Progression

When will you

Bury

All the old ghosts

And be present

With the living

When?

When will you

Dig into the depths

To truly

Know yourself

And purge the poison

Of your trauma

Claim

What has always been

Yours since birth

That power

To overcome

To move

Toward what you fear

And get angry

At the right thing

When?

When will you

Stop hiding

Stop 

Making excuses

Stop looking for yourself

In all the wrong places

Stop

Pushing love away

When?

When will you

Be brave enough

To be

All the things

Everyone but you

Can see?

I wanna know

When.

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